/blog/dramamomma/?pid=f7780 Today on the 4th of July, I remember this datein 1988. I was so very pregnant....big and wishing I would deliver my 2nd child soon. We were to go to a friends party...my 4 year old son, Tyler was so very excited....He was going to see his first fireworks show...The look on his face was one of real thrill as the blast of colors hit the sky. I was laughing with him, but also at the reaction of my unborn son. With each blast he would jump hard in my belly. Between all the movement he created and my hard laughing, I went into labor that night. Max was born the next day...July 5th.He died 3 years later....he drowned in the neighbors pool. I still miss him, 14 years later.I wrote this poem a few weeks after he died...but it is his life I remember, and cherish.My arms reach out to pick you upbut clutch the weightless air.I turn to see your happy face, knowing its no longer there.The family sits to eat a meal eachpainfully aware of the loudnessin the silence that crowds your empty chair.My little one, you left so fast it caught meunaware....My world has changed, my thoughts have numbed.my emotions are impaired.But unlike life,my love wont die..it keeps company with my despair.It doesn't matter where I go...you are still with me......everywhere. /blog/325/post_101084.html?pid=f7780&m= OKI am a middle of the road person..I am a liberal conservative, or a Conservative liberal..I did not vote for either of the major parties..I took a wait and see attitude towards the Obama lead.. I Tue, 03 Mar 2009 14:29:40 -0800 /blog/325/post_101084.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_100865.html?pid=f7780&m= Octo-Mom was in my restaurant this morning...She ordered 14 eggs with no sausage...And she told me the guy in the next booth would pay for it..OMG!!! Does this mean I am becoming a Republican????????L Fri, 27 Feb 2009 15:04:20 -0800 /blog/325/post_100865.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_99358.html?pid=f7780&m= i did not expect all the great birthday wishes..i really have not blogged in a while and I thought I was forgotten... I guess I was wrong..Thank you one and allhugsSusan Wed, 28 Jan 2009 17:58:28 -0800 /blog/325/post_99358.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_99277.html?pid=f7780&m= I'm 56 today..I cant believe I'm really this old..lol when did that happen?Oh well, I guess being 56 is no worse than being 26...I still get pimples and periods..lolsusan Tue, 27 Jan 2009 06:06:30 -0800 /blog/325/post_99277.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_97165.html?pid=f7780&m= I for one, am not looking forward to Christmas...It has been one tough year for me and I'm just plain old worn out....I will get my son Tyler some gift cards, and my mom will a new pair of pajamas.One Fri, 19 Dec 2008 06:55:01 -0800 /blog/325/post_97165.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_96311.html?pid=f7780&m= Points, that is...HA HA made ya look...Anyway, I have points I have never used...not sure how I got them, and I sure don't know how to redeem them..I wonder if they will just end up going away after a Fri, 05 Dec 2008 03:59:42 -0800 /blog/325/post_96311.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_96103.html?pid=f7780&m= Im not ready....are you??? Mon, 01 Dec 2008 16:16:03 -0800 /blog/325/post_96103.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_95784.html?pid=f7780&m= My Mom is staying with me for a few weeks..LOL I cut my hair off and now I look just like my mom..just a few years younger..We are both so very cute...she in her late 70s, and me in my mid 50's.. Lo Tue, 25 Nov 2008 15:21:15 -0800 /blog/325/post_95784.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_95446.html?pid=f7780&m= My computer was broken...did you miss me? lolWhat did I miss here??hugssusan Thu, 20 Nov 2008 13:56:46 -0800 /blog/325/post_95446.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_93556.html?pid=f7780&m= First of all let me state that I HATE abortions...especially just for a means of birth control...However I still believe it should be left up to the woman...and her God...Goddess... or just her own he Mon, 20 Oct 2008 16:01:52 -0800 /blog/325/post_93556.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_93024.html?pid=f7780&m= I have always voted in the Presidential elections... I'm not sure I always voted right, when looking back.These last 8 years have been hell for America...I wont go through the list....many others on t Sun, 12 Oct 2008 08:12:14 -0800 /blog/325/post_93024.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_92934.html?pid=f7780&m= I have tried to email you//Im not ignoring you//Thanx for your suppport... come to Califorina.. we could be roomates... I ove animals Fri, 10 Oct 2008 17:04:57 -0800 /blog/325/post_92934.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_91057.html?pid=f7780&m= I lost my house in the mortgage melt down... I didnt lose it from a bad loan.,,, I lost it from other life problems.... death of a spouse and health problems....My family told me dont look back,,,, b Thu, 11 Sep 2008 18:56:31 -0800 /blog/325/post_91057.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_86637.html?pid=f7780&m= He doesnt have the time ( or the energy) for a date with me....I guess Im not the early bird, not that Im calling him a worm...lol.This is a plea to all you ladies here to have some mercy on him.... a Fri, 11 Jul 2008 15:42:23 -0800 /blog/325/post_86637.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_84795.html?pid=f7780&m= I get to finally meet some friends here..Softwinds. VBG, and wiseowl/...I cant wait!!Mexican dinner... I dont much like the food but I cant wait to meet my cyber friends!!!!!!!!hugssusan Mon, 16 Jun 2008 17:14:40 -0800 /blog/325/post_84795.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_84613.html?pid=f7780&m= I'm not here often any more... I have been working a lot....It seems so weird that I'm making more money than ever, but I still lost my house...Now that I'm renting, I'm saving money like I never did Sat, 14 Jun 2008 14:41:30 -0800 /blog/325/post_84613.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_84473.html?pid=f7780&m= I read all the blogs , but Im to tired to post... Thu, 12 Jun 2008 16:56:25 -0800 /blog/325/post_84473.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_81397.html?pid=f7780&m= Ok I don't look like my picture...My son, Tyler is going to take a photo of me and will show me how to downland it..I'm hopeless in the cy ber field...lolI look sooooo very sassy..I think I'm ready Mon, 05 May 2008 18:45:17 -0800 /blog/325/post_81397.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_81237.html?pid=f7780&m= Oh my gosh...I cut off my hair....I donated my 15 inch ponytail to Locks of Love to make a wig for cancer patients..Now my hair is in a short shag and a nice shade of red..I look just like my mother.. Sat, 03 May 2008 14:42:10 -0800 /blog/325/post_81237.html?pid=f7780&m= /blog/325/post_81020.html?pid=f7780&m= I moved and have not been here for a few weeks..I walked away from my mortgage... I miss my little house, but Im starting over..I read blogs every day now, and no one seems to notice I have gone...Sho Wed, 30 Apr 2008 16:36:43 -0800 /blog/325/post_81020.html?pid=f7780&m=